effuchu replied to your post: Soooo, yeah… What do you do when you finally admit…

Anthony. D’8 dghaldgkjasdlfjalsdfjasfjdjdghadsdf i hope you work out a path for yourself, i suppose the only way to know is to get out there and do stuff. in any case, i find that giving art a break can be good if you find yourself not enjoying drawing anymore, perhaps…

perhaaaaaps…

I did do the break thing post-failing first year, although only for 6 months. It was nice, but not exactly perspective changing.

We will see!

Soooo, yeah…
What do you do when you finally admit defeat and accept the fact that drawing makes you miserable? Because it does, despite being the /one thing/ I am the slightest bit capable at. It does, and I honestly don’t think any other realisation could be worse.
I think I have to quit my course; spend $30 000 get depression being the alternative. Maybe outside of an education environment I might not have the same feelings, but I don’t think that is of the slightest importance. It’s not something I want to do though. Leave my course, that is. I just don’t see any other choice. I guess the whole ‘do something else’ thing terrifies me a lot, because I’ve never given thought to what else I can do/ want to do. I LOVE drawing. I love the idea of drawing. Apparently not.
I’m not edumacated enough for another course, and I think /career-wise/ I need to be a creative, or at the very least associated. My super supportive girlfriend put forth printing and bookbinding. Ignoring the benefits she’d receive, being a designer herself, I like the idea of it. I think. It’s the perfect journey into the unknown, and is probably why high school career advisors always said to have options. Only now do I discover the truth in those words. I guess quit, break, discover. I know I should /probably/ worry about this whole future deal now, but I feel I need to step back for a bit. Actual workforce, oh dear god. Definitely wait before stepping into that.

In closing,
I will miss people. I think people are good for me.

GESSO EVERYWHERE.

Additional notes:

An irregularly hollow sculpture made primarily of metal, that needs to be undercoated and painted. Worst idea in the history of worst ideas.

throbbingmanmeats replied to your photo: It’s, ALIVE!!! Constructing a found object…

AHHH!!! this is sooo awesome! it shits all over my hurried piece! gosh its cute!

also did you use wire instead of welding?

PFFFFFFT.

^all that needs to be said.

And yeah, much simpler and it holds together fine! I am going to try and find some more yarn at safeway before class tomorrow, so that I have more of a /canvas/ to work with.

BEARS.

Why are my ideas not simply creating themselves?

Odd. Further investigation is required.